I know that LaurenTKD already brought this up but it is really confusing me. What is your rank? Your profile says your are 3rd Dan, but your statement above says other wise (http://www.martialtalk.com/forum/member.php?u=9102).We had some Korean foreign exchange students sign up for class. I have never seen such talented martial artists. (TKD) They were 3rd degree. I doubt I would have that level of skill at 3rd degree. I can picture in my mind my instructors response. My instructor would say "It's becuase their 3rd degree" But is it really that their 3rd degree? or do they really practice taekwondo the way it should be practiced. With the Korean beliefs, the korean ideology, and korean culture.
Seems like you are looking for attention. This is why I say you need some counsiling or therapy.