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Feeling bittersweetā¦
23 years ago today, I started in my career as a police officer. It had taken me years and many attempts to finally get hired. I was excited, proud of my new agency, and looking forward with a little nervousness to the academy and my career.
Well, I got through the academy, and survived my first year. It had its bumpy moments ā but some cool stuff, too. Iāve seen things that Iād never wish on my worst enemy ā and been privileged to be there at fantastic moments in peopleās lives. Iāve locked a few folks up that really deserved it, kept a few out of jail that didnāt belong there, and even saved a few lives. Thankfully, I havenāt taken any. Along the way, Iāve been a task force officer working street gangs, herded cats as a patrol supervisor, and herded crazed cats on meth as an investigations supervisor. I look around, and sometimes wonder why all these kids are running around playing cops and robbers⦠and whereād all the guys I knew go. I see colleagues that I would sit car-to-car with from other agencies who are now deputy chiefs and chiefs.
Iām on my third chief. Iāve seen our command staff restructured a couple of times. I still see some of the same challenges (why canāt we have enough cars for a squad to hit the street without bandaiding them in lot?) persist, and new issues come up. I still donāt get why it is that so many command staff types seem to feel that sharing information or letting the line officers have real input is such a bad thing⦠Iāve seen golden children come and go, some to soar, others crashed and burned.
Currently, Iām trying to decide if itās time for a new phase in my life. What do I want to do as a āgrown up?ā Do I retire? What do I want to do for the next ten or twenty years? I still love being a cop ā I like interacting with people, I like the folks working for me (I oughtaā¦. I hired most of them!) and see big things down the road for them. I kind of want to be there to see that⦠but I also see the back room politics and have a pretty good idea where I stand in them. I see the drama, and I see the things that excited me buried behind the petty crap and games and nonsense that detract from the job.
23 years ago today, I started in my career as a police officer. It had taken me years and many attempts to finally get hired. I was excited, proud of my new agency, and looking forward with a little nervousness to the academy and my career.
Well, I got through the academy, and survived my first year. It had its bumpy moments ā but some cool stuff, too. Iāve seen things that Iād never wish on my worst enemy ā and been privileged to be there at fantastic moments in peopleās lives. Iāve locked a few folks up that really deserved it, kept a few out of jail that didnāt belong there, and even saved a few lives. Thankfully, I havenāt taken any. Along the way, Iāve been a task force officer working street gangs, herded cats as a patrol supervisor, and herded crazed cats on meth as an investigations supervisor. I look around, and sometimes wonder why all these kids are running around playing cops and robbers⦠and whereād all the guys I knew go. I see colleagues that I would sit car-to-car with from other agencies who are now deputy chiefs and chiefs.
Iām on my third chief. Iāve seen our command staff restructured a couple of times. I still see some of the same challenges (why canāt we have enough cars for a squad to hit the street without bandaiding them in lot?) persist, and new issues come up. I still donāt get why it is that so many command staff types seem to feel that sharing information or letting the line officers have real input is such a bad thing⦠Iāve seen golden children come and go, some to soar, others crashed and burned.
Currently, Iām trying to decide if itās time for a new phase in my life. What do I want to do as a āgrown up?ā Do I retire? What do I want to do for the next ten or twenty years? I still love being a cop ā I like interacting with people, I like the folks working for me (I oughtaā¦. I hired most of them!) and see big things down the road for them. I kind of want to be there to see that⦠but I also see the back room politics and have a pretty good idea where I stand in them. I see the drama, and I see the things that excited me buried behind the petty crap and games and nonsense that detract from the job.