Shaderon
Master of Arts
Going back to a couple of recent threads, I have been thinking of a trust issue I have, concerning trusting anyone in a physical sense. This is because of various issues I have had with the whole of my past life, I've come to realise over the years, that I have never really fully trusted anyone not to hurt me in a physical sense. I've just dealt with it by blocking it out.
However, a thread recently regarding the sense of family in the training hall started my cogs whirring, also one about horseplay amongst kids being a life learning and bonding thing.
In a relatively short frame of time, ten months to be exact, when training, I've realised that the people in the Dojang who could do me the most damage but have demonstrated by using controlled techniques that they won't, are people that I have come to trust more than anyone else ever. (Yes including my own dad who pinned me down and scared the life out of me by mistake when I was about 6) . In fact I'd go so far as to say I'd trust my instructor and the assistant instructor with my life, one or two others I trust to a lesser degree not to hurt me, but I'm still unconfident about people I've not sparred with and trained with that much.
Does anyone else feel this way or feel that training with others is a kind of "bonding" type thing?
However, a thread recently regarding the sense of family in the training hall started my cogs whirring, also one about horseplay amongst kids being a life learning and bonding thing.
In a relatively short frame of time, ten months to be exact, when training, I've realised that the people in the Dojang who could do me the most damage but have demonstrated by using controlled techniques that they won't, are people that I have come to trust more than anyone else ever. (Yes including my own dad who pinned me down and scared the life out of me by mistake when I was about 6) . In fact I'd go so far as to say I'd trust my instructor and the assistant instructor with my life, one or two others I trust to a lesser degree not to hurt me, but I'm still unconfident about people I've not sparred with and trained with that much.
Does anyone else feel this way or feel that training with others is a kind of "bonding" type thing?