Carol Kaur said:
I'm too much of an analytical thinker.
Yep, only an analytical thinker would say that. To everyone else, the ability to think analytically is an automatic pluspoint!!

But you're correct, in that it's easy to get caught in a feedback loop of thinking about how we're thinking... If you follow.
See, now you've got
me thinking...
If there exist certain autonomic physical responses that we train in MA and that become ingrained deep in our subconscious as a consequence of that training [and this is what I'm trying to get readers to think about on a conscious level] maybe there's a similar pure mental state [consisting of thoughts alone] that needs to be worked in the physical realm to clarify them and make them more concrete and tangible... Maybe that's just a convoluted way of saying quit thinking what you're thinking and start acting on your impulse!
Carol Kaur said:
You had me thinking about this for the last day or so. I think in a large part you are right. I'm actually a very outgoing person and make friends very quickly. But after a long term relationship and a divorce....eh...dating isn't what it was like the last time I was truly single. And that is a dynamic that I'm still struggling with. While I never took a break from meeting new people, I took a very long break from meeting someone that could potentially be very special in my life. And those are very difficult skills to reestablish.
I'd have to take you up on that point - not so much to disagree but to restate such that the skills [IMO] are always there inside us but we just might not be in the right state to be a vehicle for those skills
at a particular time. In your MA, you may have forgotten a technique but the technique is still in you. I play piano - by ear not by sight [I can barely read a note] I train my MA the same way: I've got many books, I've trained under some brilliant instructors, I've attended dojos in my country and others and I take on whatever instruction I can but I'm happier "playing by ear" - I need to get outside and try stuff for real, I need to know what I learn can actually be done and I don't just mean felling random passers by in the street - the question I ask of myself is can I really live the way I'm trained? Can I operate within that framework of techniques and philosophies or is my art nothing more than a diversion?
When I play by ear, the melody is clearer and stronger and I've found that I have little stomach for the pure theory of learning. OK, nothing revelationary there perhaps so the question is, how do I recall pieces I've forgotten - which happens frequently? Well I've got several methods but the best involves beginning a piece at any part that I *can* recall [there's always some bit that's right there] and once I'm off and running, I try to ride the wave / go with the flow of the piece by focussing on one particular aspect: the meter, the keysig or the actual dynamics - anything really to take attention away from the purely technical process of playing. In fact, I find the more I concentrate on the technical processes, the more inhibitive I find it is to the correct recall. Hoping that makes sense.
Well, good luck with all your thumbs
Respects!