Drunken_Boxer
Orange Belt
First of all I dont know where to put this topic so I decided here, because I had an green belt in tkd, this is a serious topic, please dont post rubbish things, I didnt talked to my parents, neither to my friends, I dont have to.
Please dont curse, dont laugh, no spam etc..
Thanks.
I got so many problems now, I dont know where to start, really.
Im sooo close to leave my town and to end up like a "psycho guy" or better to say to end up like an "retarted guy".
I work in my internet club, it belongs to my father. We got 13 computers, 5 ps2 and 2 ps3 (playstation).
Its simple, you want to play 1 hour=1 euro, 20minutes=50cent if you want to play dunno games like warcraft, counter strike, kalonline, internet and more.
1 hour=2 euro if you want to play on a ps3.
The problem is, people are not taken this internet and the rules to seriously, everybody are like "they can do what they want" like:
1. sreaming 2. cursing 3. stomping 4. sometimes they threw joysticks 5. sometimes they slap the monitor
I talked sooo many times to my father. "Father I cant work here anymore, its kinda hard to calm people down who are older then me, i talked to them, but nobody is listening, you need to warn some people to not come here anymore".
He was like "Son I dont know what to do anymore, you know how they are, you cant never talk friendly to a jerk, and we are so good with them, we know everybody here, we just cant change the rules, then nobody would come here, then what? How would we survive if we sold this inet club, or if we close it?"
It goes like this, everybody here playin pro evolution soccer 2008 on ps3 or even on a ps2, if someone shoot a goal, they begin to scream like "ronaalldoo, robinjoo" lolol xD etc., it really goes to my nerves when they scream, not only to me, to other people, I cant calm them down, because im 20, they are like 30+, they thoughts are like "im older, i can do what ever i want, it belongs not to him, it belongs to hes father".
Im really so depressed, mad, angry, Im outta control, I know Im weak, Im trying to be fearless, to fix my problems with my fists and legs...but its not the good reason to do this...not good.
Im soooo close to do somethin what I never done before.
To leave my town, to go in the mountains for like 2-3 months.
I need a break, i really need it, i talked so many times with my father, but he is not listening.
I stoped to train alone because of my problems, I dont eat well, I only sleep at the day, I work 13 hours per day. Thats from 7pm to 8 am in the morning.
My thoughts are to leave my city and go to the mountains, just there.
I will train everyday sooo hard, so hard, I know it will be not easy, i will miss my parents, my friends...(true friends).
People, I really need a good advice how to survive in the mountain or even forest, whatever, I know where to go.
I need to know your thoughts about my problem, how can I fix it, I dont want to be a calmless guy, I want to become fearless...to unlock my power inside my body, I know Im strong but I dont show it to everyone.
I didnt talked to my parents, friends, dont want to, they wouldnt understand it, my father just cannot understand me, I dont know what to say anymore...its just unbelievable.
Im young, yes I am, but its kinda hard to work with idiots, cant take this **** anymore.
Please leave a comment....Thank you.
Please dont curse, dont laugh, no spam etc..
Thanks.
I got so many problems now, I dont know where to start, really.
Im sooo close to leave my town and to end up like a "psycho guy" or better to say to end up like an "retarted guy".
I work in my internet club, it belongs to my father. We got 13 computers, 5 ps2 and 2 ps3 (playstation).
Its simple, you want to play 1 hour=1 euro, 20minutes=50cent if you want to play dunno games like warcraft, counter strike, kalonline, internet and more.
1 hour=2 euro if you want to play on a ps3.
The problem is, people are not taken this internet and the rules to seriously, everybody are like "they can do what they want" like:
1. sreaming 2. cursing 3. stomping 4. sometimes they threw joysticks 5. sometimes they slap the monitor
I talked sooo many times to my father. "Father I cant work here anymore, its kinda hard to calm people down who are older then me, i talked to them, but nobody is listening, you need to warn some people to not come here anymore".
He was like "Son I dont know what to do anymore, you know how they are, you cant never talk friendly to a jerk, and we are so good with them, we know everybody here, we just cant change the rules, then nobody would come here, then what? How would we survive if we sold this inet club, or if we close it?"
It goes like this, everybody here playin pro evolution soccer 2008 on ps3 or even on a ps2, if someone shoot a goal, they begin to scream like "ronaalldoo, robinjoo" lolol xD etc., it really goes to my nerves when they scream, not only to me, to other people, I cant calm them down, because im 20, they are like 30+, they thoughts are like "im older, i can do what ever i want, it belongs not to him, it belongs to hes father".
Im really so depressed, mad, angry, Im outta control, I know Im weak, Im trying to be fearless, to fix my problems with my fists and legs...but its not the good reason to do this...not good.
Im soooo close to do somethin what I never done before.
To leave my town, to go in the mountains for like 2-3 months.
I need a break, i really need it, i talked so many times with my father, but he is not listening.
I stoped to train alone because of my problems, I dont eat well, I only sleep at the day, I work 13 hours per day. Thats from 7pm to 8 am in the morning.
My thoughts are to leave my city and go to the mountains, just there.
I will train everyday sooo hard, so hard, I know it will be not easy, i will miss my parents, my friends...(true friends).
People, I really need a good advice how to survive in the mountain or even forest, whatever, I know where to go.
I need to know your thoughts about my problem, how can I fix it, I dont want to be a calmless guy, I want to become fearless...to unlock my power inside my body, I know Im strong but I dont show it to everyone.
I didnt talked to my parents, friends, dont want to, they wouldnt understand it, my father just cannot understand me, I dont know what to say anymore...its just unbelievable.
Im young, yes I am, but its kinda hard to work with idiots, cant take this **** anymore.
Please leave a comment....Thank you.