Fight or fight, it all boils down to those two things. Last night I came head to head with them. Woke up last night in the early am to my sister and her boyfriend having argument. Now I live with my sister till the house im renovating is finished. I hear a loud thud and my sister freaking out, so I leave my room and there now in the living room near the front door. My sis trying to get him to stay, he trying to leave, and me madder then a pissed off hornet. You see several years ago, my sister extracated herself from a abusive relationship, so you can imagine how I was feeling when I heard the commotion. He had attempted to leave there room, so she got in his way. He grabbed her arm, so she slapped him(she says pushed, but it dosent matter) so he not so gently moved her out of his way. Cant get my post to move to the next line.. sorry for wall of text, something about this browser, my enter key wont work on this site..
Needless to say both were drunk. So, im in the living room in my whitey tighties, standing between but off to the side at a angle to both of them. It was then, as he was getting angry, but not threatening, that my fight response started. I assumed the "subtle fight stance" that my new coach taught me. It places my hands up in a good defensive position while looking non threatening, and moved my feet to there proper fight stance place. My heart is racing, fast my breathing is controlled but deep. The odd thing was, the intensity of the feeling was way higher then even the hardest sparring. I felt what seemed like a weird vibration in my chest, turned out to be my muscles in my upper chest spasming.(found that odd, never happened in hard sparring) My ability to think was altered as well. I found my thoughts narrow in scope.
Normaly in sparring I can think ahead and visualize what im going to do or what is coming next, but I was unable to do so. When my thoughts did come, they came in quick flashes. Mostly if he does this, ill do that. Kicking didn't even enter my mind as a response. My mind was only able to boil my responses down to a few ways. One a slip to a duck, to a body shot with my right and weave and up to a left hook. The other was step inside, left neutral bow, double knife block, backfist and possible palm strike to face, and the final flash was a move inside of punch, parry trap, then reversal of his arm, displace him down and wrist lock.
The attack I was expecting never came. The closest he came was "bro" pat on my shoulder. It was during the "bro" pat that I had tunnel vision. All I saw for that moment was his hand and forearm. I think the tunnel vision was me focusing hard on his movements. It took a lot of my will power to prevent a automatic response from me. That was hard. Remember my emotional state was at a high, I was angry. I am proud of my self control honestly, tho I need to work more on pressure training, I should beable to maintain my fight planning during a real fight, that im disappointed in. At its peak, my hole body was reacting to the stress. Muscles in my legs were spasming, everything, I was on a hair trigger. I am glad for all the sparring I have done, I don't think I could have functioned at this high lvl of stress had it not been for the pressure of sparring as frequently as I had. Im sorry for my computers problem, for some reason, on forums, it wont let me hit enter and move to another line..
Needless to say both were drunk. So, im in the living room in my whitey tighties, standing between but off to the side at a angle to both of them. It was then, as he was getting angry, but not threatening, that my fight response started. I assumed the "subtle fight stance" that my new coach taught me. It places my hands up in a good defensive position while looking non threatening, and moved my feet to there proper fight stance place. My heart is racing, fast my breathing is controlled but deep. The odd thing was, the intensity of the feeling was way higher then even the hardest sparring. I felt what seemed like a weird vibration in my chest, turned out to be my muscles in my upper chest spasming.(found that odd, never happened in hard sparring) My ability to think was altered as well. I found my thoughts narrow in scope.
Normaly in sparring I can think ahead and visualize what im going to do or what is coming next, but I was unable to do so. When my thoughts did come, they came in quick flashes. Mostly if he does this, ill do that. Kicking didn't even enter my mind as a response. My mind was only able to boil my responses down to a few ways. One a slip to a duck, to a body shot with my right and weave and up to a left hook. The other was step inside, left neutral bow, double knife block, backfist and possible palm strike to face, and the final flash was a move inside of punch, parry trap, then reversal of his arm, displace him down and wrist lock.
The attack I was expecting never came. The closest he came was "bro" pat on my shoulder. It was during the "bro" pat that I had tunnel vision. All I saw for that moment was his hand and forearm. I think the tunnel vision was me focusing hard on his movements. It took a lot of my will power to prevent a automatic response from me. That was hard. Remember my emotional state was at a high, I was angry. I am proud of my self control honestly, tho I need to work more on pressure training, I should beable to maintain my fight planning during a real fight, that im disappointed in. At its peak, my hole body was reacting to the stress. Muscles in my legs were spasming, everything, I was on a hair trigger. I am glad for all the sparring I have done, I don't think I could have functioned at this high lvl of stress had it not been for the pressure of sparring as frequently as I had. Im sorry for my computers problem, for some reason, on forums, it wont let me hit enter and move to another line..
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