dvcochran
Grandmaster
To be fair I used to do a lot of weights. I was thin then.
I sincerely hope you read @MetalBoar 's post. Nail on the head. I would add that I assume you are posting on a MA forum because you are new to MA and have certain expectations from it. Nothing wrong with that. But a fact you need to grasp is that it will only be whatever you make it. I get the sense you are riding the high side of an emotional roller coaster that we all get on sometimes. Some handle the ride easier than others.
The best two suggestions I can give you is:
#1 - Make a plan.
#2 - Expect the plan to change. In other words there is no concrete blanket answer no matter who the advise comes from. The main thing is to start (which you have done). Then keep going. And going, and going. Like most things in life it is the marathon not the sprint you are working on. So ride the highs and get all you can out of them. Get help, to help you grind through the lows. Yout got this. Stay in touch and let us know how things are going.
The best two suggestions I can give you is:
#1 - Make a plan.
#2 - Expect the plan to change. In other words there is no concrete blanket answer no matter who the advise comes from. The main thing is to start (which you have done). Then keep going. And going, and going. Like most things in life it is the marathon not the sprint you are working on. So ride the highs and get all you can out of them. Get help, to help you grind through the lows. Yout got this. Stay in touch and let us know how things are going.