DeLamar.J said:
You must be a jehovah's witness. Your pretty good. However, Im just not wired up properly for faith. But that still dont mean I'm not going to read the Bible every once in a while.
I am very far from being a JW. Among other things, JW's deny the deity of Christ. I am a member of a United Pentecostal Church International congregation.
I grew up in a United Method Church, which is pretty tame. But stopped going when I was a teenager and was not forced any more. Many years later I found myself in an extremely conservative movement, the International Church of Christ. The UMC handed out Bibles but I never read it and no one ever said it was "the word of God" and the never paid much attention to it, other than reading a nice passage every once in a while to make people feel good. The ICOC proposed to me that the Bible was the word of God. Like so many said "come on. It's full of holes, etc." all the usual, seemingly rational arguments. They actually told me to just not come back any more then.
Then one day, I guess you can say I met God and he set things straight.
I remember reading through the Bible after a study with the ICOC group. I was sure they were just trying to confuse issues, taking things out of context to make me think it's saying something it's not, etc. I wanted to read it on my own and just get things sorted out. What God showed me that night was that the Bible is his word and made it very clear who Jesus (actually Yeshua) was and is. What turns out is that the ICOC was misquoting and trying to pull something over on me. Had I continued down that path I don't know where I would be now. I still ask people for advice sometimes, but my Biblical understanding really only comes from God. I am very gun shy about someone telling me what the Bible says. And I invite people to read and study for themselves. We offer studies to help and guide, but I don't want people to feel that I am leading them to believe something. They have to come to it on thier own time,led by God.
I let Him lead me to where he wanted me to go and learn what he wanted me to learn. I found my self in CA, leaving the ICOC and into a much more liberal and charasmatic church where I learned a few things, then on to the UPCI - a combination of the charismatic and more mainstream theology.
I may not be the worlds foremost Bible scholar. But I was able to learn greek to start translating the New Testament and do word studies. I may not be able to quote books/chapters/verses in rapid fire like some do, but I don't feel I need to. I got a good foundation and I can find what I need when I need it.
I have not only seen the 100% accuracy of Bible prophecy, like I said I have seen miracles in people coming out of the morgue, blind people starting to see and others absolutely amzing things that have left Doctors totally baffled and admitting it was a miracle.
I hope you do keep reading your Bible and praying about it. I think you are "wired for faith" because all people are. We all have "faith" in some thing. Even people who do not believe in God at all have faith in things. Some people put thier faith in the governement, people have faith in science, but we all have faith. It's all the same kind of faith, just misdirected some times.
if you keep faithfully reading yur Bible and keep the truth in your heart, then I am sure that God will do for you what he did for me.