You afraid to die?

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A pointed and personal but very simple question for all my soft-outer hard-inner Martial Talk thinkers :)

Just looking for a paragraph of inspiration I never quite seem to get what I want picking random books..... but anyway I found this and it is an exhortation to perform daily meditation on INEVITABLE death..... Hmmm and well that's the Hagakure for ya and yes right here Ch 11 if yous do not believe me and I know a very few of us would claim to walk a warriors path to that extent or anything like it but I think it is an interesting thought beyond its face value because maybe it is an exhortation NOT to be morose but because thinking of our death can shake us awake and make us realise what we are LIVING for.

So.... if you have ever performed that meditation or had a passing thought for your own death.... Q: are you afraid to die, afraid of the WAY you might die, afraid of the what after?

Thank you for sharing :)
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I think I can admit I am afraid to die and afraid of dying itself. And there is also a sadness too for not having done what I know I could do and for not having given what I know I could give. But that is all the more reason to plough on while it lasts and not make an easy target of myself. And maybe that is NOT the sound of inevitability after all? or maybe that bright light at the end of the tunnel is just the light of an oncoming train.... who knows!! LOL :D

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Well I have never meditated about my death, but I'm differently not affaid of dieing in fact when GOD calls upon me I will be reading and waiting for him.
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terryl965 said:
Well I have never meditated about my death, but I'm differently not affaid of dieing in fact when GOD calls upon me I will be reading and waiting for him.
Terry
Hey Terry :)
True faith as yours is a wonderfully supportive thing to have. Can I ask how you would feel if you were to be called by God particularly about having to leave your loved ones behind? Thank you for sharing this.

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Jenna said:
Hey Terry :)
True faith as yours is a wonderfully supportive thing to have. Can I ask how you would feel if you were to be called by God particularly about having to leave your loved ones behind? Thank you for sharing this.

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Jenna

I would hope my loved ones would understand, when GOD calls he needs us in the kingdom that he provides for us, it is not my place to question the intent and my love ones will understand this. Sorrow will be there for a brief moment but then glory would fill my heart for the family will see the true meaning of GOD intentions.
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terryl965 said:
I would hope my loved ones would understand, when GOD calls he needs us in the kingdom that he provides for us, it is not my place to question the intent and my love ones will understand this. Sorrow will be there for a brief moment but then glory would fill my heart for the family will see the true meaning of GOD intentions.
Terry
:asian: Thank you for sharing this Terry and do you think they really WOULD understand? It takes a great deal to understand such an incomprehensible thing as having a loved one taken away

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I am just afraid of leaving things undone. I have two children that I have a responsibility to and the selfish part of me wants to be around to see them grow up and to share their joys and sorrows in life. Dying anytime soon would be like not seeing the rest of a really good film. I just want to be around to see the ending. :)
 

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Jenna said:
A pointed and personal but very simple question for all my soft-outer hard-inner Martial Talk thinkers :)

Just looking for a paragraph of inspiration I never quite seem to get what I want picking random books..... but anyway I found this and it is an exhortation to perform daily meditation on INEVITABLE death..... Hmmm and well that's the Hagakure for ya and yes right here Ch 11 if yous do not believe me and I know a very few of us would claim to walk a warriors path to that extent or anything like it but I think it is an interesting thought beyond its face value because maybe it is an exhortation NOT to be morose but because thinking of our death can shake us awake and make us realise what we are LIVING for.

So.... if you have ever performed that meditation or had a passing thought for your own death.... Q: are you afraid to die, afraid of the WAY you might die, afraid of the what after?

Thank you for sharing :)
Yr most obdt hmble srvt,
Jenna

I'm not afraid to die, im afraid of what i would be doing when it happens or the last thing i did before it happens.
 

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Thanks for reminding me. I need to delete some porn...

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Jenna,

A thought provoking question to be sure! *smile* Am I afraid to die? No, but I will be bummed when it happens. Am I afraid of the method of my death? Yes and my reasons are very immediate which I will explain.

I will be "bummed" on that final day because there will be no more "tomorrow". You see I love my life. I love cooking, training, working, talking, touching, loving, the whole she-bang as it were. My last day will mean that there will not be another day to experience and grow. It will be nice if there is a whole other level on the other side but I'm not banking on it. I am milking every last moment out of this life and in the end I want to be able to say something akin to a line from Gattaca: "I didn't save anything for the return trip".

Now to the method of my death, therein lies a more pressing issue. You see last year I was diagnosed with Diabetes, a disease that has touched my family many times, most recently by claiming the life of one of my cousins who was all of about 25 at the time. It's an insidious disease, chronic in nature and nasty in presentation and progression if left unmanaged. It brought my mortality to my immediate attention and it is never far from my thoughts. I have the specters of blindness and amputation singing backup to my old friend death and they are not the kind of groupies you want to party with.

I am not afraid of death, I just want to hit it at high speed with all my faculties and not burden the friends and family that make my life so rich and rewarding. I think we all here can think of people in our lives that we would be willing to die for. For me there are several for whom I would lay down my life for without hesitation. What my condition has forced me to realize is that the tough decisions I have to make in my everyday life such as what to eat, to go to the gym, to check my sugar levels are things that I do because I want to Live for those very same people and Live Well.

Perhaps I can offer this new interpretation of a classic line:

"Death is easy, Living Well is Hard..."

Rob
 

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Being here in Iraq I am faced daily with the very real truth that my physical end is just one mortar attack away; for my brothers on the line it is just one roadside bomb away; for my brothers in the air, it is just one RPG away.

I have the benefit of knowing this and living like its going to be tomorrow. Yes, I miss my family and hope that when the day comes for me to shake loose this earthly coil that it will be with them near and my son grown with children of his own. I, however, am also not afraid of death or dying because I know that it is an answer to my Lord's call and it is better to be absent in the body and present with the Lord. I know that until He is ready, not one hair on my head will see harm and when He is ready that nothing I do can stop it from happening. I know that He has given me my family and will care fore them much better than I ever could.

All that being said, I firmly believe that the Father has an "Idiot Clause"...go ahead and jump off of a building to see if he will save you, you just enacted the idot clause.

Trust God, but lock your car.

My two cents...
 

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I have thought about this from time to time. On a philosophical level, no I am not afraid to die. I don't WANT to die, I am not TRYING to die, but I don't think I am afraid of it. When my time comes, then I guess I will see if I can face it with calm and dignity.

I think most people aren't really afraid of being dead, but perhaps are afraid of the act of dying. It's quite a dramatic change to undergo. It can be painful, and it can be slow. Here's to hoping it's quick and painless!
 

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I'm not afraid to die; not looking forward to it; I plan on resisting, kicking and screaming every step of the way though.
 

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I don't believe I am afraid of death. I don't feel as though I have to "do things" before I die. I am content with what I have experienced. However, it breaks my heart to think of the sorrow my loved ones will feel when that time comes. At the very least I hope that I remain long enough to see my son become an adult so that I know my job of preparing him for the world is finished, although, I prefer to meet death peacefully as an old man with my loved ones around. Lastly, I hope I can leave my loved ones with plenty of fond memories to last them the rest of their lives.
 

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I'm not really afraid of dying, I'm more afraid of how I'll die (being a vol firefighter I've seen all KINDS of bad deaths ) and the impact it will have on my wife.
 

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Personally, I don't see the point in being afraid to die. No matter how much you want to, you won't be able to prevent it. Nor am I particularly afraid of how I will die, since once it happens, that won't really matter.

I hope it's not through my own stupidity, and try daily to remove that potential cause, but we all have those moments...

In the end (pun intended), I guess it's true that you need to plan for the future but live each day as if it's your last. Don't hold grudges, especially against those you love, and let them know you love them at every opportunity. You never know when your last opportunity to tell them might come.
 

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I am afraid of the many nasty long pain filled ways I might die but I accept the fact that it will happen someday and will face it as bravely as i can. Actualy i am interested to see if any thing comes after but Im not in any rush to find out.
 

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"So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in their view and demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and its purpose in service of your people. Prepare a noble death song for the day when you cross over the great divide.

Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place. Show respect to all and grovel to none. When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself. Abuse no one and nothing, for abuse turns the wise one to fools and robs the spirit of its vision.

When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song and die like a hero going home." -Chief Tecumseh

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Lisa said:
I am just afraid of leaving things undone. I have two children that I have a responsibility to and the selfish part of me wants to be around to see them grow up and to share their joys and sorrows in life. Dying anytime soon would be like not seeing the rest of a really good film. I just want to be around to see the ending. :)
Thanks Lisa :) I understand this completely. And I'd guess that even if you knew your two little ones had absolutely everything they needed and wished for you would still want to be the one to provide it for them? Is this selfishness? I do not believe it is because selfishness implies something inherently wrong whereas this is a love as plain as the back of your hand. Thank you for sharing

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