Why do you turn up time after time? what are you striving to achieve and for what reason?? when it come to the time you are about to die.. what will have been the purpose of all of this time you have spent training learning studying your martial arts? thank you for responding xo
I train because it has become part of the warp and weft of my life. It is my 'way', what I do. It is what I understand as a 'do' (Japanese 'doh', not American English 'doo').
Self-defense is part of it, physical fitness (or more honestly, physical activity) is part of it, but the real reason I train now is because I enjoy everything about it. Mostly, though, it's internal now. It's what it does for my spirit, rather than what it does for my fists. Yes, I still hit like a train and kick like a mule, but if that's all I wanted to do, I can do that now.
It is the settling of my weight, locking to the floor. It is the spring tension as I receive a blow, or the uncoiling power as I strike. It is the speed and precision and control which I find within myself. It is my breathing, coordinated with my movement. It is the moments of clarity as I discover some new nuance, some new minute adjustment to my posture; or my attitude, which I had previously been unable to perceive. It is the manner in which I live my life outside the dojo and inside, and how little by little, my outside life comes to represent the lessons I have learned inside the dojo. Self-restraint, courtesy, kindness, resolve, steadfastness, determination, even humor.
Everything I ever wanted for myself as I looked for my purpose in life, I have found within the walls of a small nondescript dojo, surrounded by friends who were once strangers and are now people I would trust with my life.
I hope to train until I die. And why not? It gives me something more important than mere pleasure; it gives me meaning.