TSDTexan
Master of Arts
Last night we had a kyu exam.
Last night, i failed. big red F.
My Shihan said i was right on the cusp.
I nailed my new forms.
but durring the exam I and another student (brown belt) were asked if a white belt had done a certain white belt form correctly.
The brown belt said yes.
then I was asked. I said no.
I had spotted mistakes.
I was asked to perform that form.
I wasn't prepared to do that form.
It was a form I had not done in a long time.
at this point, i have 20 forms that I am working on. I am struggling on some of them. Some i had polished until they were textbook perfect.
Others had been neglected, as they weren't important enough to me.
Because I didnt step up and demonstrate this whitebelt form I was held back.
Failure will happen. Try not to focus on the mistake or on negative emotions. Focus on the lesson they teach. Dont make excuses for failure.
Dont beat yourself up either.
And never give up.
#failingforward
The reason, it was explained to me, is because this dojo expects sempai to know what they know in order to help the cohai.
I am disappointed in myself. And...
I am slightly peeved the brown belt graded Ichikyu after the test though. I feel that his promotion should have been held back for the exact same reason mine was. I feel that I was singled out.... or that selective enforcement of standards was in play.
nonetheless, I will correct my errors. and let my perception of preferential bias, go.
but this has actually helped me a lot. to focus.
Last night, i failed. big red F.
My Shihan said i was right on the cusp.
I nailed my new forms.
but durring the exam I and another student (brown belt) were asked if a white belt had done a certain white belt form correctly.
The brown belt said yes.
then I was asked. I said no.
I had spotted mistakes.
I was asked to perform that form.
I wasn't prepared to do that form.
It was a form I had not done in a long time.
at this point, i have 20 forms that I am working on. I am struggling on some of them. Some i had polished until they were textbook perfect.
Others had been neglected, as they weren't important enough to me.
Because I didnt step up and demonstrate this whitebelt form I was held back.
Failure will happen. Try not to focus on the mistake or on negative emotions. Focus on the lesson they teach. Dont make excuses for failure.
Dont beat yourself up either.
And never give up.
#failingforward
The reason, it was explained to me, is because this dojo expects sempai to know what they know in order to help the cohai.
I am disappointed in myself. And...
I am slightly peeved the brown belt graded Ichikyu after the test though. I feel that his promotion should have been held back for the exact same reason mine was. I feel that I was singled out.... or that selective enforcement of standards was in play.
nonetheless, I will correct my errors. and let my perception of preferential bias, go.
but this has actually helped me a lot. to focus.
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