I'm the same way. I want to know everything I'm missing. First
off, you're having a good time doing what you're doing, that's
what's most important. Secondly, you don't know most of us here
from Adam, or what our ranks are. There are for sure a lot of
high ranked kenpoists here, but there's a lot of peons like
myself here. We all have opinions, but that's all they are. We
don't spar in my school either, and I'm not going to try to convince
you of anything because both sides make great arguments for
and against sparring. The bottom line is if you're happy where
you're at, and the higher ranked people can move well, then
you're in the right place. It doesn't mean you're in the right place
all the way to black belt though. As you learn more about
ken/mpo, your curiosity might be SO strong you can't help but look
elsewhere. And remember, this is America, you can workout with
anybody you want, go watch any tournament you want, etc.
I'm just like you, I wanna know it all, right now, dammit!

It has
nothing to do with rank, it has everything to do with passion and
a craving for knowledge. But the only thing that can teach us
what we want to know, is time. Time, and a good instructor. Be
patient, it'll all come. :asian: