Brother ,
Can I call you brother ? I have walked this walk for longer than most and have and still continue to reevaluate ,why I do it on a constant basis .it is the choice's we make that make us who we are Martial Artist's Or Hapkidoin
Several years ago I went for a physical and was diagnosed with a defective heart valve (mitrael valve ) that was leaking 70% of the flow which is not good.
I was in denial ,I still manage to train and teach I also helped conduct the Friendship seminar in Florida Where I was on the mat 8 hrs a day ,When I was not teaching I was training and receiving pain .
I closed the Dojang and trained three hours a day between cardio ,weights ,and keeping in shape the best I could ,I very Seldom drink ,never smoked and was in what appeared to be great shape plus a woman friend 17 years my Junior helped ha ha
While skiing in New Hampshire, I took 6 rest's on the way mountain where I usually do 17 runs a day not bad for forty something .
The following month they performed "Robotic" surgery on the valve it was supposed to a five hour procedure which took 13 hours and I almost died ,A stroke during the operation did not help ,When I awoke I was paralyzed the right arm was done,They are not sure if it was from the position of my arm ,which strained the Brachial plexus nerve , Either way I could not use the arm
What went through my Head at this time is that I am right handed ,I am an electrician by trade Whom could no longer work ,A Hapkido man that can not grab you or even tie his old faded Black Belt,I could not shave and had to learn to use the left hand """ ********"""""" I went to therapy three times a week and used on my own Puddy ball 1000 a day until I had use of the arm 4 months and when I drove I used a Hand gripper to squeeze several hundred times each arm a Day
After I had the word from the DR. I went back to training I had not done Hapkido for over a year ,I started the nautilus ,cardio and some intense stretching for three months seven days a week before I would put on my Dobok.
I still cannot feel my finger tips I am 49 and still have 34 inch waist and can do push ups with 'NO PROBLEM" Also I had a physical this week with the Dr. Who saved my life and he was shocked or surprised at how well I am and said what ever you are doing do not stop. When he asked about my hand I told him to grab my wrist He laughed and said he fell for that before ..ha ha
So I have been there and every day is decision and every day ,I walk the walk and choose the path that chose me And we that choose the path sometimes use different guides or different paths but it is going the same direction