I feel unsafe outside. Maybe you heard about the incidents in Germany, like what happened in Cologne on new years eve.
People are being robbed at train stations much more frequently than ever before. I saw an interview with a police officer who said this.
But I really dont know what I should try to learn. I am 30 years old. Been working out for a few years in the past but then had to stop cause I simply developed too many aches and pains in my body. I also wasnt successful at working out. For me gaining strength and muscle mass was ridiculously hard. Later I found out I have low T. I have been on testosterone replacement since 2014 but to be honest it's not a game changer. I was expecting much more from it.
In Germany testosterone replacement therapy is also very old fashioned and not modern like in the USA. Doctors here do not use arimidex or hcg or short injection intervals.
We have gels and Nebido and testosterone enathate 250mg (sp?).
The gels didnt really work for me, they also were annoying cause you have to apply them daily.
Nebido is a huge 1000mg oily injection you get every 3 months. WAY too risk imo. There are cases of
people getting really sick after the injection if the doc accidentally hits a blood vessel!
You may say that this doesnt happen but I read reports from patients who have been getting Nebido for a long time and everything went well and then suddenly an injection went wrong (often for unknown reasons and the doc himself didnt do anything else than before) and then they are seriously sick. I dont know what could happen if too much oil gets into the blood strem. Maybe you can get a stroke or heart attack or embolism. I cannot risk that I'd get a panic attack even during the injection.
I get 250mg injections every 3 weeks. This way the T curve goes up and down. It peaks after a few days and then continually goes down and reaches a borderline normal level before the next injection. It's not optimal but the best I can get.
One time after an injection I had a bad reaction. When getting up I felt weak and then my vision started to get worse. It started to flicker and I had to lie down otherwise I would probably have fainted. My blood pressure was totally low.
This incident was really scary and now I am scared of every injection and this is just the small 250mg injection. If something goes wrong with a 1000mg injection then **** really hits the fan.
Important points:
1) I want to learn something which gives you results as fast as possible. I dont want to have to train for years before I can even apply something in a self defense situation.
2) I am not flexible. I cannot do high kicks. I dont know how much I could reach with stretching but I also dont know how to stretch effectively without causing an injury. When I bend over I lack at least 15 inches to reach my toes.
3) I am not physically strong.
4) I have quite a few ailments. Been to many doctors in the past without them finding a real cause or cure.
I frequently have pains in joints without real reason (no trauma or something like that).
For example I have been having pain in my knee when bending the knee for years!!! I have had MRIs, blood tests they all showed nothing and yet the pain is there.
I feel very fragile. It's often ridiculous how I "injure" myself in daily life. For example when getting up from bed I used my hands to support myself on the mattress. I was basically making a fist and then pushing this fist into the mattress to get up. This is a normal move you do in daily life.
And yet because of the pressure which the mattress applied to my fingers I now have pain in my index finger when I bend it! It's a pain in the first joint of the indexfinger.
I have been having the very same issue years ago and this pain lasted for 1 year before it subsided. Now when I make a fist and then gently push my bent indexfinger down against the palm of the hand it always causes pain in the first joint.
It's not a bad pain but it's really crazy how easily I can hurt myself.
5) I have issues with my shoulders (impingement). Been to the doc already he said that the space is too narrow and my tendon suffers from this. I shall do physical therapy. But I dont know how much this will help.
I dont know if doing MA/SD where you have to raise your arms and move them around might not make the shoulder issues worse.
6) I tried to educate myself a bit about MA/SD and tried to get an impression what different styles look like.
I watched some wing chun videos and found that it looks interesting. I also watched silat videos, also looked interesting. But I have no clue how good this is for SD.
For example I often heard stuff like "this MA/SD doesn't work against boxer,wrestlers,yadda yadda yadda".
This worries me. What if you learn something and think you are well prepared now and then you find out that your stuff doesnt work at all against a certain attacker? Just imagine the shock you suffer in this situation.
This shock alone will probably make you lose the fight.
I think that's all. Thanks for every advice.
People are being robbed at train stations much more frequently than ever before. I saw an interview with a police officer who said this.
But I really dont know what I should try to learn. I am 30 years old. Been working out for a few years in the past but then had to stop cause I simply developed too many aches and pains in my body. I also wasnt successful at working out. For me gaining strength and muscle mass was ridiculously hard. Later I found out I have low T. I have been on testosterone replacement since 2014 but to be honest it's not a game changer. I was expecting much more from it.

In Germany testosterone replacement therapy is also very old fashioned and not modern like in the USA. Doctors here do not use arimidex or hcg or short injection intervals.
We have gels and Nebido and testosterone enathate 250mg (sp?).
The gels didnt really work for me, they also were annoying cause you have to apply them daily.
Nebido is a huge 1000mg oily injection you get every 3 months. WAY too risk imo. There are cases of
people getting really sick after the injection if the doc accidentally hits a blood vessel!
You may say that this doesnt happen but I read reports from patients who have been getting Nebido for a long time and everything went well and then suddenly an injection went wrong (often for unknown reasons and the doc himself didnt do anything else than before) and then they are seriously sick. I dont know what could happen if too much oil gets into the blood strem. Maybe you can get a stroke or heart attack or embolism. I cannot risk that I'd get a panic attack even during the injection.
I get 250mg injections every 3 weeks. This way the T curve goes up and down. It peaks after a few days and then continually goes down and reaches a borderline normal level before the next injection. It's not optimal but the best I can get.
One time after an injection I had a bad reaction. When getting up I felt weak and then my vision started to get worse. It started to flicker and I had to lie down otherwise I would probably have fainted. My blood pressure was totally low.
This incident was really scary and now I am scared of every injection and this is just the small 250mg injection. If something goes wrong with a 1000mg injection then **** really hits the fan.
Important points:
1) I want to learn something which gives you results as fast as possible. I dont want to have to train for years before I can even apply something in a self defense situation.
2) I am not flexible. I cannot do high kicks. I dont know how much I could reach with stretching but I also dont know how to stretch effectively without causing an injury. When I bend over I lack at least 15 inches to reach my toes.
3) I am not physically strong.
4) I have quite a few ailments. Been to many doctors in the past without them finding a real cause or cure.
I frequently have pains in joints without real reason (no trauma or something like that).
For example I have been having pain in my knee when bending the knee for years!!! I have had MRIs, blood tests they all showed nothing and yet the pain is there.
I feel very fragile. It's often ridiculous how I "injure" myself in daily life. For example when getting up from bed I used my hands to support myself on the mattress. I was basically making a fist and then pushing this fist into the mattress to get up. This is a normal move you do in daily life.
And yet because of the pressure which the mattress applied to my fingers I now have pain in my index finger when I bend it! It's a pain in the first joint of the indexfinger.
I have been having the very same issue years ago and this pain lasted for 1 year before it subsided. Now when I make a fist and then gently push my bent indexfinger down against the palm of the hand it always causes pain in the first joint.
It's not a bad pain but it's really crazy how easily I can hurt myself.
5) I have issues with my shoulders (impingement). Been to the doc already he said that the space is too narrow and my tendon suffers from this. I shall do physical therapy. But I dont know how much this will help.
I dont know if doing MA/SD where you have to raise your arms and move them around might not make the shoulder issues worse.
6) I tried to educate myself a bit about MA/SD and tried to get an impression what different styles look like.
I watched some wing chun videos and found that it looks interesting. I also watched silat videos, also looked interesting. But I have no clue how good this is for SD.
For example I often heard stuff like "this MA/SD doesn't work against boxer,wrestlers,yadda yadda yadda".
This worries me. What if you learn something and think you are well prepared now and then you find out that your stuff doesnt work at all against a certain attacker? Just imagine the shock you suffer in this situation.
This shock alone will probably make you lose the fight.
I think that's all. Thanks for every advice.
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