I don’t believe that you do. But that’s my take on it. So I don’t know what else to say. I and some others have tried to give you some perspective to work with, but it seems they aren’t sitting well with you. So there are some other possibilities. One is that a method that uses forms is just not a good match for you and you ought to train in a different system. I say that all the time: any given system isn’t a good match for every person. Another possibility is that TKD forms are garbage and not worth practicing. Another possibility is that you received poor instruction. Another possibility is that you haven’t worked hard enough and applied yourself to the training. I can’t pass judgement and determine which of these, or something else, it may be. It may be that you ought to think about this part of the issue: you aren't satisfied with the answers you're getting, and this is a theme that has been going on for a while, so what do you do about it? Do you keep doing what you have been doing, in spite of the fact that it is unsatisfying? Do you look for a way to change? Do you have some possibly tough discussions with your teacher? Do you look for a new teacher and/or a new system? For what it is worth, I have abandoned more than one system that I had dedicated years to, when I realize they weren’t the right thing for me. Think it over.