ManOfVirtues
Yellow Belt
Several of you know me, and some of you have even trained with me. I consider all of you as a member of my (Bujinkan) Family. That is the only reason I bring it up here.
Today a few things happened cocurrently that lead me to injure my hand on a partition in the bathrooms here at the office. To spare the details a new member of IT (who is a personal friend of the owner) has slowly been trying to take my job.
My Self control led me to take out my anger on the partition and not on said person. However it dawned on me that this is not who I was six months to a year ago.
As a child I had an anger issue, resolving any comflict with physical measures. After a long sit down discussion with my Ishinryu Sensei (Sherman Harrill) my path began to change and my anger went away.
Now I find myself stressed out, angry at the world (myself included) and I come to you guys for help. I dont know what exactly I expect you to do, i guess im just looking for a voice from someone that knows more then I do. I dont want to go back to the way that I was, but I dont want to become another lamb to the slaughter either.
What we practice is no sport, its not flashy, it serves one purpose to kill. A combination of my anger issues and training could put me in a situation that none of us want to be in.
I guess I feel like one lost little Ninja.
Today a few things happened cocurrently that lead me to injure my hand on a partition in the bathrooms here at the office. To spare the details a new member of IT (who is a personal friend of the owner) has slowly been trying to take my job.
My Self control led me to take out my anger on the partition and not on said person. However it dawned on me that this is not who I was six months to a year ago.
As a child I had an anger issue, resolving any comflict with physical measures. After a long sit down discussion with my Ishinryu Sensei (Sherman Harrill) my path began to change and my anger went away.
Now I find myself stressed out, angry at the world (myself included) and I come to you guys for help. I dont know what exactly I expect you to do, i guess im just looking for a voice from someone that knows more then I do. I dont want to go back to the way that I was, but I dont want to become another lamb to the slaughter either.
What we practice is no sport, its not flashy, it serves one purpose to kill. A combination of my anger issues and training could put me in a situation that none of us want to be in.
I guess I feel like one lost little Ninja.