Work as a Doorman/Security Person at the Club I am employed at has not been so good. Of late work has been nothing more than non-stop issues with fights and a lack of support from management and staff not doing their job (responsible service of alcohol etc). Fellow security staff have not been up to speed on dealing with issues and it has all fell back to me alone to act. I am not only dealing with alcohol fuelled violence but Ice as well. After some 35 years Martial training and experience and I find that I am now seeking something more than dealing with violence, threats on myself and family. I see something more from life then just this. Its been a succinct moment of epiphany where one suddenly begins to understand that there is more to life. The actual situation seems to be declining rather than getting any better despite my efforts. The other thing is at 45 years of age, I seek something more from life than dealing with the violence (be it alcohol and "Ice" fuelled) on a regular basis. I guess its part of me seeking peace within my life .... a state of self actualization or realisation. I seek a better path of being. We (my wife and I) and I are now looking at our future options.
Just a rant
Just a rant