I've always been interested in martial arts. In fact I've spent most of my life upset with my mother for not putting me in karate and not buying me a drum set when I was young. instead of letting me choose my extracarricular activities i was molded into a jock baseball, football, basketball, even archery, fishing, swimming/diving... but not what i asked for over and over. As I got older this was something that i never addressed to myself typical rebellious teen i guess. Break dancing was popular and I remember trying to do head spins and backspins @ about 7-8. I believe that this started my back problem of scoliosis. I was diverted from my interest in karate to little league baseball. And i was a pitcher...I went to the library and bought a book on how to pitch. 9 years old and throwing curve balls,sliders,knuckle balls, my fastball was a lil below average. i was told by coaches that your not supposed to through curveballs till your older but I didn't listen. I enjoyed watching batters dodge a pitch that became a strike. I put everything I had into every pitch tried to develop a good fastball but never did. Instead I believe that i complicated the existing scoliosis and by the time it was diagnosed the chiropractor was unable to straighten me out. I prayed to be like everyone else and i tried to. I always sit up straight and i was self-conscious about it most my life. around a year ago I started popping my back by relaxing and tightening muscles.( My back has always been strong and my bench press week when i was lifting weights regularly i could dead lift 405lbs for 3 sets of three. the most i ever benched with no spot was 295 1 time.) I dislocated my shoulder trying to straighten my back out. there was a spool of thread in my shoulder the spool separated from the thread---is the best way i can describe what I felt. the side effect was frightening in that it pulled my back so tightly that i felt like if i released the tension off one muscle that my spinal chord would surely be severed. I didn't sleep for two days and didn't go to work instead i balanced the tension out and could finally relax. My back wasn't straight but it was better. I was the rear-ender this graced me with 3 months chiropractic care. I didn't know it but this was the beginning of my prayers being answered. and it wasn't much longer before the Ki came to me and I began to see energy. I am attempting to be brief in doing so leaving out a lot of what i consider to be important details. Eventually I will fill them in and hopefully publish an autobiography. Ki was not the first spirit I've communicated with. I had experiences with quigi boards when i was around 15-16 years old. I had closed my eyes to them when it became too deep and every so often one would pester me. Shortly after my unraveling one came to me named jesse he claimed to be In love with my Ex girlfriend and had me contact her to tell her not to marry Don. I left her a message and she still will not talk to me about it. It freaked her out too much and she is uncomfortable talking to me since i know things that i shouldn't. Anyway Jesse and I had a bit of a power-struggle and went our separate ways for the most part. Jesse is a story in itself and I will write that another day. if anyone is interested in hearing it email me and I will forward a draft to you upon completion. Spirit of the butterfly. I lost my license, my car was stolen before being repossessed and after three driving with no licenses tickets. I got a studio apartment in the ghetto of phoenix near central bus station. I had a job running a machine that put together junk mail packets(shopwise). the butterfly effect is alot like the movie to me. I realized more clearly then ever the effects of my efforts pitching gave me today. like stored potential energy I could see it green and blue/purple. also physical manifestations in the form of white spots and black spots in different places on my body mainly the extremities. like tangled threads I learned how to let go and follow the flow. My balance was poor and if I let go too far i would find myself on the floor. Then i let go on the floor as well. I recognized miracles in the smallest things objects walls counters chairs just seemed to be in exactly the place needed to pop this toe adjust that rib I developed a freeform kata my hands are extremely fast and I found that i could let them fly without thought process they would avoid contact in confined spaces> I was incredible to me i smashed the back of my left hand on a sharp corned of the counter the pain was excruciating and illusion-> it happened for a reason i could literally feel my chi crawling under my skin as the pain subsided. I purchased my 1'st butterfly knife and it truly became an extension of my hands. I had learned the basics as a kid but nothing like what was happening. It was like acupuncture and I realize how they discovered the treatments.one night the knife flew out of my hand and stabbed me in the left foot. the day before i had dropped it on concrete dulling the tip thank God. I new it happened for a reason and it didn't hurt for long. I recognized the fly aspect of the knife and a pillow became its pin cushion. I broke it and got another. the next check i got two more knifes one was a quality one i still have and another cheap one so i could do two at once. I also got a small set of chucks /w chain and bearings. The next check I got a full size round pair. I blew out three of the bearings the third bearing was the large chucks with the longer chain. And I Broke my wrist right after i bought my second set. I beat the crap out of myself on purpose and on accident and I do It a lot. that is how I've gotten to be so proficient with them. I now have two pair of octagon ones with nylon cords unfortunately i'm about to snap my first cord. I just recently heard the be water my friend interview with bruce lee and it makes a lot of sense to me. for when i was in my apartment I became the apartment.