I’ll try to keep this brief. Fell in love with BJJ about a decade ago and was hooked day one. Trained religiously for 6-7 or so years, competed, did well and was a purple belt for about a year prior to having an extremely rare condition which paralyzed me waste down for about 3 months, took about 18 months to recover as best possible. Full mobility and range of motion/strength just neuropathy in feet a bit is all. Rolled maybe twice, got staph on my quad and needed leg saving surgery. Was out another 6 months, just to herniate a disk in my back and put me out another year plus. Point being is It’s been about four years since I’ve trained, I love it and miss it every day and I’m finally cleared to train and workout. Prior to injuries, I competed 194 walked around 205 and I’ve put on 50lbs! I’m a fat ****. literally haven’t been able to do ANYTHING physical in years and am a fat *** with zero flexibility who will want to puke after warmups likely.
Just want some some feedback here. Hard to admit this, but I’m embarrassed to roll into New gym (I relocated), in my current shape, having not rolled in 4+ years and strap on my purple belt. I fear the embarrassment of wearing it as right now I’ll get tuned up by anyone who can run a mile without stoping. I realize my learning curve will be super fast and everything will come back as I’ve continued to study online and such, but I just don’t know how I’ll feel wearing a semi ratty purple belt and not being able to perform basic fundamental techniques or even forgetting some of them. What’s your thoughts on how to approach this? thx for the perspective.
Just want some some feedback here. Hard to admit this, but I’m embarrassed to roll into New gym (I relocated), in my current shape, having not rolled in 4+ years and strap on my purple belt. I fear the embarrassment of wearing it as right now I’ll get tuned up by anyone who can run a mile without stoping. I realize my learning curve will be super fast and everything will come back as I’ve continued to study online and such, but I just don’t know how I’ll feel wearing a semi ratty purple belt and not being able to perform basic fundamental techniques or even forgetting some of them. What’s your thoughts on how to approach this? thx for the perspective.