You know, I feel so inadequate in training sometimes. Mostly when it comes to application. I have had a little over 2 years training, and I cannot apply anything worth a crap. It's not that I'm not taught application, it's just that my mind kind of freezes and I can't remember what to do, or to be spontaneous, or in the least bit effective.
I still need to be told how to apply things and I feel stupid and inadequate in my training. Last night we did an application drill and I felt like a total moron. There were guys in class that had like 5 months of training and were kicking ***...and here I am like an idiot, duh...what do I do?
Anyway, I get discouraged by my lack of "getting it" after all this time. WHY DON'T I GET IT?????
I still need to be told how to apply things and I feel stupid and inadequate in my training. Last night we did an application drill and I felt like a total moron. There were guys in class that had like 5 months of training and were kicking ***...and here I am like an idiot, duh...what do I do?
Anyway, I get discouraged by my lack of "getting it" after all this time. WHY DON'T I GET IT?????